so why is it that i am constantly comparing the person that i am, the life that i lead, the things that i have, and so much more, to everyone around me? i think i’ve always known in some way that this is something that i struggle with doing, but it’s really come to the forefront of my mind lately that it’s something that i need to constantly surrender to the Lord.… it’s so strange the ways that the enemy can attack us.
one of my favorite songs lately is one by sara groves called “you are the sun”. it’s a great song in general, but the part that really speaks to me says,
“And I am the moon with no light of my own
Still you have made me to shine
And as I glow in this cold dark night
I know I can’t be a light unless I turn my face to you”
i’m sure that i learned this in elementary school, but i was reminded one day while i was listening to the words that the moon has absolutely no light on its own… it only lights the night because the sun shines through it.
amazing. God is so smart (duh).
this is a perfect parallel to how i truly want to live my life for God… i want to glow because HE is making me. i want for people to look at me, and see Him… to see that what He wants is behind every movement that i make, thing that i believe, attitude that i portray, word that i speak, way that i love, thing that i find joy in, talent that i’m blessed with, moment that i’m thankful for, relationship that i nurture… (well, it’s definitely a tall order, but you get the idea). i don’t want the comparisons that i make between myself and others to shape the person who i want to be… i want to be who i am because i know that it will please the Lord. it is so tiring to constantly size yourself up to everyone else, and i am 100% sure that it is in no way pleasing to the Lord… i mean, of course there are positive aspects to watching the way that people live around you, or reading others thoughts, and allowing them to challenge you in the ways that you conduct yourself and view life, but when it becomes a distraction, discouragement, and point of focus and frustration, i believe that it is then a tactic of the enemy to get our eyes off of who we should actually be turning our faces towards… Christ, and everything that he is trying so hard to teach us everyday. easier said than done, i know… but i think it’s definitely worth working on.